My Path to Awakening

Have the Audacity to Live your Best Life

To me, awakening means becoming the truth of who you really are.

It is a profound shift in your consciousness and awareness designed to ignite self-discovery and propel you toward a future brimming with possibility.

When we cut through the noise, reset our mindset and align with our deepest desires, we break through the roadblocks and become unstoppable on our path to enlightenment. Instead of following someone else’s dream, we start embracing our own.

My path to awakening involved three things:

1. Listening to and acting upon my intuition

2. Slowing things down and going deep within to truly understand myself, to allow in forgiveness, self-love and compassion

3. Making a firm decision of how I wanted to live the rest of my life and learning how to harness magic and miracles into my life.

The more time I spent in the stillness of my own mind, the more clarity I received.

The universe plays music for those who are willing to listen.

I was not brought up to be religious, and I was never introduced to the spiritual realm. When I began having profound spiritual experiences it completely blew the lid off everything that I thought I knew about life and how things worked. I am still in awe at the mystery of my spiritual journey.

The first indication I had was a little voice inside my head that I instinctively knew was not my own. At the time I was stuck in an abusive narcissistic relationship fighting daily for my life… and all the voice kept saying was NOW!

You need to go – NOW!!

Initially I swept it away like an annoying fly that won’t leave you alone, but each day was worse than the last and the voice continued to get louder and louder – now, now, NOW!

Then I had what I now know was a premonition. I saw an image of myself in the mirror that scared me to death. It barely looked like me and I immediately knew that if I stayed in my current situation that would become my future reality. I found the courage to leave my husband and within a few weeks I was in a new city beginning a new life. I had no money saved, and no plan of what I was going to do. I was terrified of the unknown, but I knew it was something that I had to do, and I had to do it now.

I was determined to figure out how to break old patterns and to do that I had to dig deep inside and really get to know myself. That may sound silly, but the truth is, most of us don’t actually know ourselves as well as we think we do. We just go through the motions of life never really knowing what we truly desire or what our purpose in life is.

During this process of self-reflection and introspection I asked myself all the hard questions and incredibly the answers I was seeking were found within. They were there the whole time. I had just never taken the time to slow down and allow the wisdom of my soul to come through. This time was different, I took all the time I needed to really understand myself - why I think the way I do, how my past experiences shaped my beliefs and how those beliefs were holding me back. The more I understood about my true nature, the easier it was to find forgiveness, compassion and love for the girl who had been through the depths of hell and yet still showed up with a heart of gold and an unshakable spirit.

My entire life I always felt weak, and I now see the truth. From early on in childhood and throughout my adulthood I was always overpowered by men who had a God complex, thinking they can do whatever they want with no consequences. That isn’t weakness, it is complacency. They were the ones who were weak praying on the innocent, not the other way around.

Taking the time to get to know and understand myself was the best thing I ever could have done for myself. Learning how to love myself, in all of my glory, the good, the bad and the ugly was the catalyst of my awakening.

My dark knight of the soul moment forced me to step outside my comfort zone and really analyze who and what I was. My soul was calling out for mercy for me to save myself. It was knocking on the door and when I had the premonition, I knew I had to listen.

There was a small pond behind my new home which holds a special place in time for me, my thinking spot, the place I would go for reflection and calm. It felt like a vortex of energy that connected me with Mother Gaia and you could feel the magic in the air. It felt like a portal to another dimension; it was absolutely divine.

When you connect to the oneness of all that is, the divinity that pours through your soul is unimaginable. It can only be described as pure bliss.

I was on a healing journey, I was navigating a new city on my own, and I was discovering who I really was. For years I had felt powerless, doing what I was told and ignoring my own needs. When I left my husband I only took a few of my personal belongings and left the rest behind. And although I essentially had nothing material, I felt more abundant than I ever had before. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, even though I hadn’t gotten there yet.

On top of all of that I was feeling very unfulfilled in my legal career, and unsatisfied with my life in general. Now that I had found peace within, I was struggling to cope with the stressful job and fighting in court was never going to bring me any happiness. I was offered a permanent position which was feeling so out of alignment. But I had no alternate plan so what was I going to do?

One day, down at the pond, I was in deep contemplation over what to do about my job. I was standing on a large rock and basically just threw myself at the mercy of the universe; vulnerable, raw emotion, hands thrown out to my sides asking for guidance from above. Almost immediately, the clouds came together right before my eyes and formed what looked like two eyes. They were perfect circles with the blue of the sky showing through the center and the sun shining around the edges. The eyes were glowing. I felt an intense presence like someone or something was looking down at me. And then I felt this overwhelming surge of unconditional love surround me like a warm blanket on a cold winter’s night. There was no judgement, only unconditional love. It was pure, it was intense, and it was by far the most blissful and wonderful moment of my life. The love coerced through every cell of my body and every fiber of my being.

The message that I received during this transmission said,

“Follow your heart and the money will follow.”

I turned down the job offer the next day.

I chased after my dream, and it has set me free.

Once you have awakened, you see things so clearly and wonder how you didn’t see it before. Some things are hard to fathom when you haven’t experienced it yourself, and our minds have a hard time accepting things that cannot be measured. But once you wake up and the dots all start connecting suddenly it all makes sense. All of it.

The beautiful tapestry of life, all the marvels and mysteries, the miracles and the magic and the forgotten wisdom that has been passed down from those who walked this road before us. Society has taught us that busy is better, hustle and grind, go, go, go. But the truth is when we slow down and smell the roses, when we take note of the beauty and the wonder of the world all around us, when we tap into our own consciousness and connect with universal wisdom, we realize that we are all part of the same masterpiece.

And when we find forgiveness, compassion, gratitude, and love in combination with connection to the divinity that is within, we awaken to our true, authentic nature. Imagine a world where we all loved ourselves and made decisions from the heart. Imagine the vibe that would ripple around the globe.

The next experience I had at the pond was spontaneous and inspired by sound. I was sitting on the bench enjoying the warm sunny day listening to music when suddenly this song started playing that I had never heard before. There were no words, only harmonious notes playing at a frequency that allowed emotion to pour through me. I had an orgasm in my heart; it burst wide open, and a tremendous amount of peace and gratitude poured through me and all around me. I was overcome with ecstasy, and it was better than sex. It filled my very being, it replenished my soul. I saw beauty everywhere. The water was sparkling in the sunshine, the birds were chirping, the ducks were swimming across the pond. Tears of pure joy streamed down my face, and I just sat there enjoying every moment, taking it all in, knowing that I was loved and supported. I have never felt my heart so full.

My frequency was tuned in and the universe played me a song.

I completely surrendered. I vowed to create a life that I love living by helping as many people as I could and sharing my message in as many ways as possible. We all deserve to live a life we love living but it can be difficult to navigate it on your own. Sometimes we have to seek help and guidance from those who have been through it and came out on the other side.

When you open your heart and discover true unconditional love you set the stage for future happiness. The universal energy is LOVE, and by extension, we are universal beings having a human experience and when we open the door for love, we find the peace we have been seeking all along.

Enlightenment comes to those who have faith; those who are willing to believe in the invisible but trust that it is there.

Start small but dream big. Take it from me, you never know what the universe has in store for you but until you start believing it, you will never see it. It is hidden in plain sight just waiting for you to discover it.

If I can do it, you can do it too.

With much love and many blessings,

Mandolin Brown